In 2007, I gained: A new perspective. I lost: My fear of speaking in public...for the most part. I stopped: Writing and making art. I stopped doing my gallery The Office. I started: A meditation group in my home on Sunday nights. My first professional curating gig. I was hugely satisfied by: The year my company had, best ever. Keep your fingers crossed for 08. And frustrated by: By my inability to stay healthy and drop weight. I am so embarrassed that I: That I'm heavier then I should be. Once again, I: Stayed sober.(nearly 15 yrs now) Once again, I did not: Drink or drug. The biggest physical difference between me last December and this December is: Not Much has changed, I have a better knee if that counts. The biggest psychological difference between me last December and this December is: Well, last Dec. my friend Matt had just committed suicide and I was in one of the tougher places I've been in a long time psychologically. It was pretty much "a dark night of the soul" time last Dec. Fortunately I'm happy to report after much work, etc. I'm in a much better place this Dec. Through it all I never lost hope.....never do. I loved spending time: Over a cup of coffee at Cafe Layfette in Seal Beach with Michele. Why did I spend even two minutes: Worrying about what other people thought? I should have spent more time: Listening. I regret buying: Sorry, No regrets here. I will never regret buying A trip to get away even though with that money I could have bought: Many things that in the long run don't mean much. I Eat Out way too much. I didn’t listen enough. The Cult of Celebrity drove me crazy. Was ________??__________________ crazier than ever last year? Or was it me? The most relaxing place I went was: Upaya Zen Center in Santa Fe NM for a meditation retreat. I feel so ______??_____________when I write that down. Why did I go to? No regrets when it comes to travel. The best thing I did for someone else was Listen (sorry it's going to be one of my resolutions for 08) The best thing I did for myself was: Therapy and regular meditation. The best thing someone did for me was: It's was a phone call I got from my best friend Jerome (he'll be here Thurs.) from Boise in March. It rocked my world and saved me. The one thing I’d like to do again, but do it better, is: Help others.
I found this old prom pic of me (far left) and thought I'd share. I'm not sure what year this is but my date was Katie McGough (bad photo) and we were pretty buzzed when this photo was taken. Yeah, I was a bad kid. I still talk to a couple of the the guys in the photo. Jeff Klus (2nd from right) ended up being my roommate when I was in my mid twenties. We shared a house here in HB at Graham St. and Warner Ave. Katie and I went through some pretty rough times together and lost touch at one point for several years. We had to go travel our separate journeys. Fortunately Kate and I both survived and were able to connect again. She's in New Mexico now becoming a nurse. We still communicate regularly and usually see each other once or twice a year. The picture of her below is at my 40th B-Day party that my wife threw. The prom picture actually makes me kind of sad knowing what we were about to experience and where we were headed ( I put a needle in my arm for the first time in her bathroom, she's still mad about that). The truth is, neither one of us should be alive or have the lives that we do. There's a bond there that's pretty strong.
The wife out did herself this year. I'm kind of a watch guy. It's the only piece of jewerly a man should wear besides a wedding ring so I think when it comes to watches you can be a little extravagant, in my opinion. I've had my eye on a IWC Portuguese for a while but just couldn't pull the trigger. Well Michele took care of that. She seemed to think I had a pretty rough year personally and that I deserved it. She's a good wife. Here's the newest watch in the collection:
I also received my first ever blue Tiffany box. Isn't that suppose to be the other way around?? In it were a couple of engraved cuff links with my initials. The wife likes it when I get dressed up which I'm required to do for work from time to time and she has wanted to get me some of these for some time. Consider it positive reinforcement. Very nice.
Needless to say I'm as a happy as a little girl...
So I'm pretty much laid up and having my own little film festival over here and just watched a great one that I need to recommend. Paris Je'Taime is a collection of 18 five minute films all based in my favorite city. Some are sad, some are funny and some are intense. There's my film review for you. Go rent this film. It captures the city pretty well in my opinion.....and it'll put a tear in your eye.
Well the surgery went smoothly. I haven't had to take any of the pain meds which is good. The ibuprofen seems to be doing the trick. Now I have about ten movies to watch that the wife and I rented before the surgery. I'll be doing a lot of movie viewing the next couple of days..
This afternoon I get my knee scoped. It seems that some time in the last several months I tore my Meniscus. Over the last few weeks it really started to hurt so I went in to see the Dr. and now I'm going under the knife. I'm not really worried about the procedure. It seems everybody I know has had it done at least once so I pretty much know what to expect and physical pain has never been an issue with me. I'm just a wuss when it comes to emotional pain. Anyway, wish me a speady recovery, hopefully the recovery will be fast and furious.
We got back in to town this afternoon and promptly started to cooking for a little orphan Xmas we were having at our house. We usually try and open up our house on either Thanksgiving or Christmas when we're in town so that friends of ours who have nowhere to go etc. can come over and hang out. Here's a few pics:
It wouldn't be a Hoff House event if a poker game didn't break out...
Off to Petaluma to spend a couple of days with the wife's sister and her parents. Happy Holidays everybody. Back on Tuesday. Have surgery (knee) on Wednesday so that should be interesting. Hopefully I can get the Dr. to take a pic of my opened up knee to put on here! Cheers.
This one's for Suzanne over at Emphasis Mine because I know she'll appreciate it. Because we're leaving town tomorrow the wife and I went over to my parents to do a little gift exchange, etc. with my brothers.
This is one of my all time favorite scenes from any movie:
I used to work for that guy. The first job I ever had in sales was with that guy. Not that guy exactly of course but he was pretty close. Basically everything I learned in the beginning, good and bad I learned from that guy. My first boss was the most unethical man you could ever meet but he was smart. No denying it.
I loved the sales game. As a high school drop out there weren't a lot of opportunities coming my way and when this guy gave me a shot I took to it like a fish to water. He gave me the opportunity to determine my own income. If I was willing to work hard the sky was the limit. I loved it. Every day was a battle, facing rejection over and over, the camaraderie of being in the "trenches" with the other salespeople and of course him yelling at us when we didn't get the job done. And nothing is better than the feeling of landing the big account. It still moves me.
Fortunately for me, my second boss in my career was the most ethical man I would meet. My second boss had an even bigger impact on who I am today professionally. He was the one that got me to see that sales could truly be a profession and could take me far if done ethically and professionally. I still meet with him from time to time when I seek advice.
I love that scene because it reminds me where I've come from and where I am now. And it makes me proud to be successful in sales, a profession that scares a lot of people.
Here's a cool little video that is a pretty good analogy for meditation and how when you fight your thinking you create more thoughts and how when you let go you're more apt to find peace. Via Precious Metal.
I first picked up a copy of Monocle at the newsstand in South Coast Plaza a few months back and was impressed right away. For those interested in art, design, culture, business with an international focus you can't go wrong with this fairly new magazine. And as someone who still prefers a newspaper or magazine to the Internet I'm happy to support the new endeavor. Although the $150 subscription rate was a first. For those that don't want to fork over the steep subscription rate there's always your local newsstand or their informative website.